Full circle

This past week or two I feel as if I am at a place, where everything is good. It's never going to be 100%, but better than a place I was a year ago.

Just over a year ago, I was spilling my unstable guts at the doctors, in a fit of tears and mental anguish. As a result I've been on Mirtazapine, a drug for depression and anxiety. It's had its first birthday, and I am ready to begin weaning myself of the drugs. Quite frankly I am sick of being fat. One of the downfalls, is that the drug slows metabolism, and the cruel side effect, ironically,  is wanting to eat more!

The last month, I have been on a health kick, I've been eating so much better and am walking at least four nights a week.

I've been cooking dinner earlier, and then getting out on my own going for walks, while Brett deals with the girls. It's been just what I needed. I am feeling so much better for it, along with the healthy eating.

I have felt like it was selfish, but it's not. I need to make time for me. To do something for me.

Last Thursday was a pupil free day and Friday a school closure, for the Adelaide Show of all things. We live 430 kms form Adelaide, Riddick! Isabel joined us for playgroup at her old kindy on Friday.

I started this year with the mantra 'No guilt'. I make sure to keep telling myself that, for I do not need to feel guilty for doing things for me.

I keep this in mind as I pound the pavement. I do wonder though, if anyone else counts steps as they walk! I subconsciously count steps as I walk. It's weird. I do a lot of thinking when I am walking, probably too much.

I am hoping that walking at dusk, the magpies are going to sleep. I am so not looking forward to the magpies swooping. That would suck.

I can barely keep my eyes open as I type. The past couple of nights I have stayed up way too late watching Julia Roberts movies. Both of which have made me cry at the end. Which probably has more to do with the wine, than anything else, but they both had sad and emotional endings! I am yet again staying up way too late watching movies again. 

I've given myself a break on the weekends mostly, and have not walked, but drunk wine.
I have put off writing my Monday #openslather post. As usual I leave it to the last minute, mostly done the night before (so I wrote this last night!).

We spent a great father's day shopping at Bunnings, the girls crafted and had face paintings. We bought a new BBQ. We hit Kmart. Brett bought a new bike, and the girls got some new clothes. I am just happy with the new BBQ :)

How have you been feeling lately?
Do you count your steps while you walk? I am quite proud of being a weirdo ;)

An InLinkz Link-up

I love me a good list, and who dropped their guts?!

Are you a list lover?

I like lists. They help me get shit done. 

I love the way I feel when I can cross things off my list. It keeps me on track. It makes me feel good.

I should make more lists.

Except when I get on the computer. Bloody facebook. Bloody distractions.

I have heaps of stuff to share on the blog, mainly stuff I've cooked. Do you think I can sit down at the computer and not faff about on everything else but? The answer to that, is NO by the way. I need to make computer job lists and stick to them. 

Don't be too surprised when I bombard you with stuff to cook next week. As long as I don't get sidetracked and fart on about lists.....

I made a list yesterday.

1.To plant the punnet of Coriander seedlings I bought at Woolies a couple of days ago. Done! After I had to hunt down the contents of the empty punnet I found under the swing set. Izzy had planted the whole thing in a big blob next to her cubby house. 

2. To chop up the gum tree branches that hubby cut AGES ago and just left them sitting there. Doneski! I have one very full green bin.

3. Take the bits of tin away, left over from the chook house extension, to the recycle centre. Done! Again, useless husband. I am not one to hold back on the husband bashing by the way. So frustrating.

4. Clean the back patio. It's been seriously neglected and just shit everywhere. Done!

5. Plant seeds that I saved from last years veggies. Done!! I even have photographic evidence.

I kicked arse yesterday. I am so proud of myself. Now I just need to put clean my car, inside and out on the list. I was a just a bit embarrassed when my Mum got in a couple days ago. Utter pig sty.

Speaking of pigs. I totally made someone spit out their coffee yesterday. Fist pump.

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Do lists make you happy?
What have you been kicking arse at lately? There's got to be something.