I am feeling right now like a caged animal.
It's been windy, wet and freezing cold of late.
Being indoors most of the time is already doing all of our heads in. The kids are getting cagey. They pick on each other, and all our tempers are short.
But that is only half of the problem. I don't get any time out of this house on my own. Pursuing my own interests. It is taking it's toll and it needs to change. But I can't see how.
I've been teary, frustrated, angry. There's the need to get out, to break these chains. To fly.
I want to take more photos for the 'My place in time' project. I can't go too far, I have bald tyres on the back of my car. With the wet roads, it's dangerous.
Then there's petrol money. It's all just a bit depressing.
I'm going to be selfish this week, I don't care how much it's going to cost. I don't care what Brett has to say about it. I'm off to get new tyres today, and get us all out of the house. I have to. I cannot stay bound by these walls for another day, it is not doing me any good at all.
Tomorrow, while Izzy is at kindy, Summer and I are going to Coonawarra. The other red centre of Australia. Red wine that is. There's things happening there and I want in.
A wine tasting(not too much), some chocolate and photos of vines.
Although the beaches have been getting a hammering with the high seas, I want to go see it for myself. The seaside always washes my cares away. So a visit to the coast is on the cards this week too. More photos.
Sometimes I feel like I'm just being a total sad sack. Like I should just suck it up and get on with it. I know I can't stay at home feeling stuck. Time to do things on my own isn't going to happen any time soon, so I have to them with kids in tow or not do them at all, and that is not an option. I have to DO. I feel strongly about doing.
Do you ever feel your wings have been clipped? What do you do about it?
I am just being a sad sack, aren't I?!
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